This is a serious post, so if you do not want to read it, then by all means, skip it.
Last Sunday I got drunk and did something really bad. I do not want to go into specifics, but would rather talk about where I plan to go from here. First thing is, I am quitting drinking, I am looking into AA and have an appointment with a neurologist/psychiatrist.
Why the medical help? Well, the nurse from my insurance company says it sounds like I have a chemical imbalance which causes me to blackout when I drink. I also need to talk about things, I mean, I tend to bottle things up and then when I am drunk, like really drunk, they explode out of me, and I tend to hurt the people I love. So I need to get help, because I am absolutely tired of hurting people, physically and emotionally.
Anyways, do not think this means I will no longer have fun, it just means I will no longer be drinking. I can definitely have fun without alcohol. Hopefully everyone out there can be understanding of that.